I heard you the first time
You said you miss me want me close
You don't have to say it again
I need to feel it when you don't
I hate that I notice
Who reaches first
How long you go quiet
How soon the silence starts to hurt
I hate that I keep count
When I swore I never would
I could ask
But then you'd know
You say you mean it
Why do I still have to guess
You say you want me
Why do I still need to ask
I wanna know
How much you want me
Without showing you
How much I do
I tell myself you're lying
But this is going nowhere
I say I won't fall for it
And you call and I'm right there
What if you're not lying
What if every word is true
What if I call it distance
And you just call it space
I believe you
Still I'm keeping score
Maybe that's how you show it
Still I need something more
I wanna know
How much you want me
Without showing you
How much I do
It makes sense
It still hurts
Knowing why
Doesn't make me want you less
Then you ask me all those questions
You won't ask the one you want
I know I'm not the answer
I still answer every time
I could say they don't mean it
But I don't know if that's true
Maybe they mean every word
And you still don't feel wanted
Every honest answer
Takes you where I can't follow
Still you go back
And so do I
I know what would hurt less
I still know what I want
Every reason tells me to stop
Something in me stays on
I know enough
I know better
I know
I'll try to talk myself out of this
Again in the morning
Tonight I don't want to
译文
你说的话 我早就听见了
你说你想我 想离我更近
你不必再说一遍
我只想在你不说时 也能感觉到
我讨厌自己竟然会留意
是谁先靠近
每一次要等你多久
还没等多久 就已经开始难受
我讨厌自己还在数着这些
明明发过誓绝不会这样
我可以问你
可那样你就会知道
你说你是认真的
为什么我还是要猜
你说你想要我
为什么我还是要问
我想知道
你究竟有多想要我
又不想让你看见
我有多想要你
我告诉自己你在说谎
可这一切好像只停在原地
我说我不会再当真
可你一找我 我还是会在
也许你并没有说谎
也许每一个字都是真的
也许对我来说那是距离
对你却只是一点空间
我相信你
可我还是会暗自比较谁更在意
也许这就是你的方式
可我还是需要更多
我想知道
你究竟有多想要我
又不想让你看见
我有多想要你
这一切都说得通
可还是会痛
明白为什么
也不会让我少想要你一点
你却带着那些问题来找我
不去问那个你想要的人
我知道我不是答案
可每一次我还是会回答
我可以说 那些话都不是真心
可我不知道那是不是真的
也许每一个字都出自真心
可你还是感觉不到那个人有多想要你
每一次坦诚的回答
都把你带向我无法跟随的地方
可你还是会回去
而我也一样
我知道怎样才会少痛一点
可我依然知道自己想要什么
每一个理由都劝我停下
可心里总有什么关不掉
我已经知道得够多了
我明明知道不该这样
我知道
我会试着劝自己别再这样
明早再试一次
可今晚我还不想
